i bought a batman longsleeve that's swell today.




so went out with stella and bern today. nat asshole-y ps-ed. fyi nat, i HATE people who ps because they are tired. ANY excuse could have been better, except being tired or lazy. all that excuse shows is that you aint willing enough to make the effort to leave your house for me, your friend. tells alot.

listening to qing fei de yi the whole night. dont know why, suddenly found solace in chinese love music. chinese pop love music. though i'm like catching only some parts due to my stupendous level of cheena, i still enjoy wheezing through. oh wells. better than nothing! i'm listening to even the very least bitof cheena music, a standing ovation for this miraculous feat thanks.





oh oh. hahah. my fishie tank is finally fully set up. now need a few bits and pieces like fizing up the cover which i already have, and and.. water conditioner which i must buy. soon. hahah. and then the fun begins :D

but i really really do love dogs more :( even guinea pigs are awesome :( dogs and guineapigs, these two top my list of favourite legal pets in singapore. those who have then, yes. i'm bloody envious of you. you seriously do not know how much i love these furries, and how lucky you are.




ooo. my skin's peeling a wee bit. hahaha.




its 4.30. i cant sleep damnit. or rather, i dont feel like cos i really dont feel like wasting my time doing nothing. i dont know why :/ and the bloody cough. congrats, its your 20thday surviving in me, your host. you dont know how much irritance you have been to me. if i could see you and grab you, i'd swear i'd pinch and sqeeeze the living daylights out of you. bloody mini creatures.




i'm determined to come to a conclusion before these 3days are up. either go, or no. maybe it really isnt that hard a question, maybe it really isnt a thinker. but i think, for once, for a change. i'll be the other side of me, the other side which i have not known. strike one!

run baby, run....................


its a new week, but what can i say, last week was down-right the best week of my hols, of my year-so-far. let's rundown-slash-recap.

monday - went sentosa tanning. like finally. loved every bit of the overbearing sun, though i didnt tan too much. skin's peeling a teeny bit after a week, but it isnt really as bad as a hot wakeboarding day out at sea. had lots of sun, though i really dont understand going into the sea. really. i'd never prefer going into the water at a beach, cos i dont really see the point when we have a ball and tons to play OUT OF the water. if we didnt have a ball or are dead bored, only then would i like the water. but yeah, loved it overall. i always loved the sun what, so no surprise.

tuesday - went to get guitarssssss. hahah. alec and i, and bern tagged along to show us the way here and there. learned abit along esplanade, like the basic chords and played around/ lepak and did nothing. watched the sun go down within minutes and sweet.

after that, headed down to the east side [mainly parkway and siglap] to have dinner and chill with nat and aud. after some foodcourt stuff [you know, the steamed rice, salted fish and pork thingy. we thought it would be ex! but when we looked at the menu pricing, we realised its the soup that was da bomb. so, we did without it.] after that, headed to icecreamchef and chill and talked talked talked. felt soooo comfortable chatting with them. there was no stress, no fear of being judged on anything. talktalked, then headed over to siglap mac at 11 or so cos icecreamchef was closing. chatted awhile more and took the last bus home. it was the most peaceful, smooth day.

wednesday - had guitar lessons as bern's. learnt abit, then realised why he could grow to that size. his house is freaking good to just do nothing at all. its like, EVERYWHERE feels awesome to sleep and do nothing. damn nice.

clubbing after that at night. crazy night. we did 11pm - 4am. NONSTOP. my legs felt tired for the 1st time in 3 years. even the 10km run i did before wasnt that hurting on the legs. but it was the best clubbing night ever. loved it to the max(:

thusday - died. i was dead. lol. till ard 5plus, when i woke up and headed out to have dinner with the matas. so sorry matas :( i was really tired and a goner. but it was really fun seeing you all once again. loved it. and, GO AND DIE TIFFANY. people dead alr still float there. you, sick only still dare to not come. grrh. hahah. and definitely not forgetting, the lovely bitchings. hahahha. :D:D

friday - BBALL. haha. like FINALLY. you dont know how long i missed basketball, even though it wasnt my day. i kept going and going even though there was a blister on my big toe that has that searing feeling, and my hamstring felt weird. but, hell. i really missed shooting hoops. it was love man.



dont ever look back....................


yeah thats about it. apparently, even though it may seem like a casual week for some people out there to have tons of fun stuff to do all day, please. i treasure my every moment. even though you might have them more, you probably dont feel the moment as much as i do. i thoroughly enjoyed every moment this week. it was special, it was memorial. and its really pleasing to know who made it how it was, and how glad i knew them for this week to be the best week [ever] in my current memory.


awesome, it was really.

So here am i, a day late, after a calm bath staring at the blogger typing page. [geez, the same old page. its getting very tacky. blogger should change their pages as often as facebook does man. ]

its a day late [2 actually] because i originally had the intention of jotting down some stuffs some nights ago. but yet again, due to procrestination and other factors, i didnt do so.

so basically, what i wanted to fit in this page of memory was "tuesdays with morrie". it is endlessly amazing and thoughtful, with meaning and ideas that gives plenty of room to ponder and realise. arh, if i could explain how good it is, i'd be writing my OWN book already. just go get it read if you havent, yea?

anyways, quotes!! :D hahaha. [ i dont know why am i so excited to list down some quotes. i was even preparing while reading the book k! mygosh. hahaha]

"we've got a forn of brainwashing going on in our country. Do you know how they brainwash people? They repeat something over and over. And that's what we do. owning things is good. more money is good. more property is good. more is good. more is good. ... the average person is so fogged up by this, he has no perspective on what's really important anymore.

"wherever i went in my life, i met people wanting to gobble up something new. gobble up a new car. gobble up a new piece of property. gobble up the latest toy. and then they want to tell you about it. 'guess what i got? guess what i got'.

"you know how i interpreted that? these were people so hungry for love that they were accepting substitutes. they were embracing material things and expecting a sort of hug back. but it never works. you cant substitute material things for love or gentleness or for tenderness or for a sense of comradeship."

.....
you know what really gives you the greatest satisfaction?
what?

Offering others what you have to give. ... , by offering something you already have.

.....
quoted from a poem, "love each other or perish."

.....

and the one i liked most [so hard to find back. grh]

-here's how we're different from plants and animals-

"as long as we can love each other, and remember the feel of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. all the love you created is still there. all the memories are still there. you live on - in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here."

"death ends a life, not a relationship"


see. friendship are the most important, take that. who cares if you earn that 200bucks over the holidays doing labour, but miss out on bonding with people who will live on in your soul when you age old and wither? that dollar earn aint gonna save you, but that memory built with an hour will get you through forever.

anyways, was at the crematoriam(?) the weekend and i thought of my uncle, ironically, the person i was, uhm, 'visiting'. when i went over to the huge colum of fire where they dump the big boxes of goodies to be sent to god knows where, i winced when i remembered.
just a year ago, we were all at the same place for our grandfather. apparently, as it was crowded and rowdy, me and my uncle decided to part with the group and deliver the goodies. lo and behold, i'd never have thought that it would be my final lasting impression of him. and ironically, it was the same place where i thought of him, where i remembered him, where we were. coincidental eh? but this sadness did swipe me for a moment, as i wondered how it really felt, when some one leaves us just too early, and we've only scattered memories of them, none whole.


thats about it. some thinking. hahah.


anyways, this cough is really getting to me. i really feel like yanking at my throat.

well, by looking at tomorrow's schedule, i should be off snoring by now. even hours ago. but i just had a conversation, and i realised. my viewpoints and stands on stuff sometimes are really way extreme of others. and, i cant help it most of the times. its like a piece of me, my veins and tendons. you cant detatch them and just replace segments which others disagreed.

to me, i value my friends alot. at least, i know i do, but it seems like the way i valued friends in secondary school seemed a little too much to feel normal, so much so that i feel frustrated when things arent what they used/seem to be.


oh well. everyone's different. i guess i love friends, and hate lonliness. either way, they compliment so i shall live peace with it.


then on. today, i read tuesdays with morris again in the back of the car. here's an extract which i felt so much for, and the words really flowed out with pure truth and heartfeltness. its amazing how mundane and meaningless words could be threaded with emotion to furnish this paragraph into something priceless and everlasting.

here it goes: [pg 105]


"how we feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears, but we dont let those tears come because we are not supposed to cry. or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we dont say anything because we're frozen with the fear of what those words might do to the relationship.

Morrie's approach was exactly the opposite. Turn on the faucet. Wash yourself with emotion. It wont hurt you. it will only help. if you let the fear inside, if you pull in on like a familiar shirt, then you can say to yourself, All right. it's only fear..."


thats about it. i actually only wanted to bring this up =]

nights, and please. do yourself a favour as you do the people around you one. Sleep on that and realise, if it makes as much sense to you as it did to me. cos i think that its damn good, and really. we should all learn to be nice.


okay, maybe i should :x

this is amazing.


get it. i'm back with blogging. haha. its fascinationg, cos i've wanted to do so since some time back when i'm all bored to the bones, but only till a couple minutes ago did i really get my fingers to work out blogger.com.

anyways, a drive-thru update of how my seconds have been ticking away recently. uhm, recently got a fish tank(tub). got the filter working which cost me abit, but no fishes in yet. hahaha. currently having this pretty worrying feeling of just selling everything at half price cos i'm too lazy to go to the shops to buy pipes for it. lazy. but really much got started cos the prices of red aro's really drop shit lot. so thought of getting a few to rear till adult and tada. a beautiful set of reds. awesome.

oh. i'm almost 3/4 through with tuesdays with morrie. i'd say its a nice book with touching and really feeling moments.. but. i dont know why, unlike popular belief, it seems that i prefer his other book which i read before TWM, which was something like, "5 people you meet in heaven"? yeah. i reeeaaalllyyy prefered that book a great deal more. hm-ho. why why.

*turns and look around* oh! i bought new earpieces. wazzahhhh! HAHAHA. like finally. my apple one died on me with all the rubbish melting/dissappearing to god-knows-where, and the spongey going gone as and when. bought the cheap one cos i felt pretty bad getting the better one, despite the incessant bothering of 2 big mouths. irritant sial. you both dont know how bad i feel. arghhhh.
anyways, its a sennheiser(sp!), so. i guess it aint too bad.

omgomg. HAHAH. there's seriously another thing i wanna tell everyone.. BUT! whahaha. i shall only do it at the end of this post. ;D;D so exciting :P

uhm, also... i passed my exams. i guess its good that i passed, but with really sucky scores. so, yeah. if you care for my health and you care for yourself too [cos i'll beat the crap out of you], dont ask me bout my results (:

oh and recently, my hair has been pretty "stuff-free". hahaha. no wax or anything.

i guess you can say that i've become very very much lazier. i've come to realise, how easy laziness is. the positivity of laziness. hahaha. its like, much less effort is needed since all you have to do is not care!! how nice is that. hahahah.

okay :x that may have sounded silly, but. i really just found out recently. bleh.


OMG. now to the most exciting part of this :D


I LOVE SNSD, ESPECIALLY TAEYEON.


i could write a thousand word thesis on taeyeon and why i like her [any normal person with the slightest sense, eyes and heart would like her. how impossible is it to do the possible??!]

those who dont like her/anti's, fuck off thankyouverymuch. but as to where, i dont know. cos for sure, even hell wont like people like you all in there. god created you all for a reason - to be labelled as losers, and to naturally be one. if you must know, if the earth doesnt have any suckers like you all with no wit and all shit, there wont be anyone left around surviving to make others feel smart. thanks to people like you all, others with a low IQ of even a mere 5 would feel pretty blessed since there're always people like you all lower and more hopeless than them. see, learn that that is your only purpose in life. other than that, please, stick ur head between the wall and the loaded barrel of a gun, cos that's where it belongs, and thats where the loudest sound will resonate since there's nothing but emptiness between your ears.

for the rest of you normal people with eyes and senses, thank god for your normalcy. beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, but for taeyeon, its present in everyone with cornea, pupil and lashes. she's totally dorky and cute, and amazing. shall not comment further lest this really becomes the preface of a really long and fantastic story :D

and yeah. so as you can tell, pretty much into korean stuff now. still cant grasp their speech as well as japanese, but yup! on they way, baby. hahaha.

OH AND. listen to GEE!! omg. cutest song. hahaha. but my fave would still be taeng singing i have a lover on chinchin radio station, and himnae [way to go!]. still, all are nice :D

BOF is getting on too. pretty nice, but online quality sucks too badly. but but! their sound track is really swell. show's pretty ok too, and athough people say its better than the jap's, i'd say they're both pretty much as good as the other(:

and hyun joong. he's really.. hahahah. :x shall not say further, cept for the fact that i wont mind getting a facelift to look exactly like him. ROFL.

andand. kangin is damn funny too. but i'm jealous please. he gets to spend his EVERYDAY with taetae. WTH. fairness please, i'm only asking for a day with her.

ah, then again. nvm. i'm gonna marry her anyway. ROFL. HAHAHHHA.

and and. [OMG. this is never ending. hah] WeGotMarried and StarGoldenBell are offically the funniest shows ever. i can die crying and die dying watching them. omgomg. they just air the show everyday or something on national TV. will definitely make singaporeans laugh more than in their currently solemn lives.



hahahaha. that's about it for a start. forever know, i loves kim taeyeon :D its amazing. she's amazing.