So here am i, a day late, after a calm bath staring at the blogger typing page. [geez, the same old page. its getting very tacky. blogger should change their pages as often as facebook does man. ]

its a day late [2 actually] because i originally had the intention of jotting down some stuffs some nights ago. but yet again, due to procrestination and other factors, i didnt do so.

so basically, what i wanted to fit in this page of memory was "tuesdays with morrie". it is endlessly amazing and thoughtful, with meaning and ideas that gives plenty of room to ponder and realise. arh, if i could explain how good it is, i'd be writing my OWN book already. just go get it read if you havent, yea?

anyways, quotes!! :D hahaha. [ i dont know why am i so excited to list down some quotes. i was even preparing while reading the book k! mygosh. hahaha]

"we've got a forn of brainwashing going on in our country. Do you know how they brainwash people? They repeat something over and over. And that's what we do. owning things is good. more money is good. more property is good. more is good. more is good. ... the average person is so fogged up by this, he has no perspective on what's really important anymore.

"wherever i went in my life, i met people wanting to gobble up something new. gobble up a new car. gobble up a new piece of property. gobble up the latest toy. and then they want to tell you about it. 'guess what i got? guess what i got'.

"you know how i interpreted that? these were people so hungry for love that they were accepting substitutes. they were embracing material things and expecting a sort of hug back. but it never works. you cant substitute material things for love or gentleness or for tenderness or for a sense of comradeship."

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you know what really gives you the greatest satisfaction?
what?

Offering others what you have to give. ... , by offering something you already have.

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quoted from a poem, "love each other or perish."

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and the one i liked most [so hard to find back. grh]

-here's how we're different from plants and animals-

"as long as we can love each other, and remember the feel of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. all the love you created is still there. all the memories are still there. you live on - in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here."

"death ends a life, not a relationship"


see. friendship are the most important, take that. who cares if you earn that 200bucks over the holidays doing labour, but miss out on bonding with people who will live on in your soul when you age old and wither? that dollar earn aint gonna save you, but that memory built with an hour will get you through forever.

anyways, was at the crematoriam(?) the weekend and i thought of my uncle, ironically, the person i was, uhm, 'visiting'. when i went over to the huge colum of fire where they dump the big boxes of goodies to be sent to god knows where, i winced when i remembered.
just a year ago, we were all at the same place for our grandfather. apparently, as it was crowded and rowdy, me and my uncle decided to part with the group and deliver the goodies. lo and behold, i'd never have thought that it would be my final lasting impression of him. and ironically, it was the same place where i thought of him, where i remembered him, where we were. coincidental eh? but this sadness did swipe me for a moment, as i wondered how it really felt, when some one leaves us just too early, and we've only scattered memories of them, none whole.


thats about it. some thinking. hahah.


anyways, this cough is really getting to me. i really feel like yanking at my throat.