well, by looking at tomorrow's schedule, i should be off snoring by now. even hours ago. but i just had a conversation, and i realised. my viewpoints and stands on stuff sometimes are really way extreme of others. and, i cant help it most of the times. its like a piece of me, my veins and tendons. you cant detatch them and just replace segments which others disagreed.

to me, i value my friends alot. at least, i know i do, but it seems like the way i valued friends in secondary school seemed a little too much to feel normal, so much so that i feel frustrated when things arent what they used/seem to be.


oh well. everyone's different. i guess i love friends, and hate lonliness. either way, they compliment so i shall live peace with it.


then on. today, i read tuesdays with morris again in the back of the car. here's an extract which i felt so much for, and the words really flowed out with pure truth and heartfeltness. its amazing how mundane and meaningless words could be threaded with emotion to furnish this paragraph into something priceless and everlasting.

here it goes: [pg 105]


"how we feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears, but we dont let those tears come because we are not supposed to cry. or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we dont say anything because we're frozen with the fear of what those words might do to the relationship.

Morrie's approach was exactly the opposite. Turn on the faucet. Wash yourself with emotion. It wont hurt you. it will only help. if you let the fear inside, if you pull in on like a familiar shirt, then you can say to yourself, All right. it's only fear..."


thats about it. i actually only wanted to bring this up =]

nights, and please. do yourself a favour as you do the people around you one. Sleep on that and realise, if it makes as much sense to you as it did to me. cos i think that its damn good, and really. we should all learn to be nice.


okay, maybe i should :x