its so sad you know.

this sorrow engulfs one like a never dying flame, lingering on second by second as it inches deeper into your skin, flesh, bone, then heart and soul, until some thing comes along to ease the charred burns and the paths which it has taken, the path which will remain scarred for as long as blood flows through your veins and oxygens beats your very cell.

whats the point of blogging, when the days are bad, and the nights are sad.

seriously, births and deaths are such pain, even though they are before and after life, and they bring such emotions to those in between life.

i'm so stressed about everyone's lives and all. why cant we all just make things easier. its seriously not that hard. emotions, what are they? yes, it hurts. but, no one said it didnt.

let go. let live. why the hassle, why bother? who said you must be ruled by your heart? why suffer alone, like a one sided love affair, just that its pain instead. who let others live their life carefreely while hurting you? they dont care. they dont fucking give a damn. why do you? why SHOULD you?

use your head. rule yourself. who said you could allow yourself to be consumed by emotions and feelings? god created emotions for the weak, to be subdued by them. you pity yourself? why dispair?


fuck. i've hardened so much, i'll soon need a plug to keep my head bleeping, cos my heart wont be beating no more.

random funny dope.

things i learnt from mom.

1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE. "If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."

2. My mother taught me RELIGION." You better pray that will come out of the carpet."

3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL." If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

4. My mother taught me LOGIC." Because I said so, that's why."

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC." If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT." Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

7. My mother taught me IRONY." Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS." Shut your mouth and eat your supper."

9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM." Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"

10. My mother taught me about STAMINA. "You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."

11. My mother taught me about WEATHER." This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."

12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY." If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE." I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION." Stop acting like your father!"

15. My mother taught me about ENVY." There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."

16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION." Just wait until we get home."

17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING." You are going to get it when you get home!"

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE." If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to get stuck that way."

19. My mother taught me ESP." Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"

20. My mother taught me HUMOR." When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT." If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."

22. My mother taught me GENETICS." You're just like your father."

23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS." Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"

24. My mother taught me WISDOM." When you get to be my age, you'll understand."

25. And lastly, My mother taught me about JUSTICE." One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you.




:D

how can someone like you so much, so so much. how can someone, think of you. through out the entire day, through his dinner and pool. when he sees a happy kid licking at his cone, he sees your smile, lighting the place up. when he scores his game, he looks to see if you're there, to see if you're the reason good things happen. when he wobbles back home after a long day, he wonders how wonderful it'll be, if he turned his head, and all he could see was your everlasting, warm smile, next to him, side by side. how can he, think of you so so much, and like you even more..

when i dont even know you well at all.



and hell yes, i do. and i dont know what to do.

i actually [not surprisingly] lost the mood to blog again for the past few days. hahah. been pretty topsy turvy here and there, so hell. why bother going through all the pain and joy, when they have already made their mark once in my life?

also, some things are once in a life time. there's just no second chance.


i miss bestie lotssss. i swear i'm gonna update you on my life and how it's been and you will do the same! (:

i completed boys before flowers alr. i'd say.... its as goood as the japanese version, without any bias. there's none the better, pretty good in their own ways.


andand! there's really a list of stuff i wanna do ;( wanna, and kinda, hafta for some. i sure hope i'll get them done by the hols! else, when school starts, we all know how its gonna get. :(

- get hair done [definitely before sch reopens]
- go makan with alec and ganggg.
- go club with matas [tiff and matt is on! the rest!]
- PRAWNINGGGGG. [preference: east coast, bishan, pasir ris, serangoon! ]
- meet up with bestie more often.
- to go out with you, once(:




haiyaaaaaa. so damn hard luh wl.

ok, i'm bored. i officially suck/cant sustain online conversations. it's the worst. how do you communicate efficiently, without even knowing how the other person really feels or responds?! :(

tsk. i think i should go back to the olden days where there's no technology and all. boohooo. so, sorry to those who cant talk to me online, i really cant stand it. and yes, i love calls. hahah. but still, nothing beats meeting physically(:
oh and plus plus. there'll be less stuff to study bout! hahahah. what a good discount :p

ok bye.

found this somewhere. one of the funnier ones :D only for the guys, and girls who are mature and wise enough to realise that its all jokes and nothing sexist, instigating or dirty. for those who cant, disney channel's having zack and cody now.



1. When I was born, I was given a choice - A big Willy or a good memory. I don't remember what I chose.

2. Your birth certificate is an apology letter from the condom factory..

3. A wife is a sex object. Every time you ask for sex, she objects.

4. Impotence: Nature's way of saying 'No hard feelings....'

5. There are only two four letter words that are offensive to men - 'don't' and 'stop', unless they are used together.

6. Panties: Not the best thing on earth, but next to the best thing on earth.

7. There are three stages of sex in a man's life: Tri Weekly, Try Weekly, and Try Weakly.

8. Virginity can be cured.

9. Virginity is not dignity, its lack of opportunity.

10. Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand.

11. I tried phone sex once but the holes in the dialer were too small.

12. Marriage is the only war where you get to sleep with the enemy.

13. Q: What's an Australian kiss?A: The same thing as a French kiss, only down under.

14. A couple just married were happy with the whole thing. He was happy with the Hole and she was happy with the Thing.

15. Q: What are the three biggest tragedies in a mans life?A: Life sucks, job sucks and the wife doesn't.

16. Q: Why do men find it difficult to make eye contact?A: Breasts don't have eyes.

17. Despite the old saying, 'Don't take your troubles to bed', many men still sleep with their wives!


hahaha. what a laugh(:



2 of my fav songs currently - qing fei de yi &lean on me.

why? both have reeeaaallyy good lyrics [i try to figure qing fei de yi k. tried. so, for the parts i understand, yea. the lyrics are pretty nice. the rest which i dont understand, haha. no comments. and for lean on me, the entire song is THE song which everyone needs to know. the lyrics are.. well. i'll just post it here for the good of mankind.]


LEAN ON ME - BILL WITHERS [but imo, other version eg micheal bolton sounds pretty nicer. yeah. not that bill's aint good though]

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long'
Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long'
Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me...


get it? its the epitome of lyrics. heartfelt. true. pure.



have been watching WGM hyun joong- hwang bo. i swear hwang bo's super cute. i'd love her anytime. and hyun joong. damn funny plus, he look's damn good. yes, i'm jealous. sighhh.

:( but i'm gonna watching finish so siol. the last 2 episodes, i so dont wanna finish it :(

stjames in the morning/lastnight. pretty interesting, music is moderately horrible. hah.



thats it for now.

food for thought: We know exactly where one cow with Mad-cow-disease is located among millions and millions of cows in America but we haven't got a clue as to where millions of illegal immigrants and terrorists are located. Maybe we should put the Department of Agriculture in charge of Immigration? [ :x copied from somewhere... again. hahah]

sometimes, i pity myself.


what a sin. they say, its better to have loved than to never love at all. but isn't that an even greater sin then. its the night man, the time of evilness enveloping every breathing soul with their eyes still flashing around their sockets.

mostly, its nice to know of the times where i loved my friends alot, which used to be the case a few years back and i gathered back a wee bit recently. but, hey. everyone needs someone for a moment or two some point in time at their life moments.


argh. i need sleep. i'll get over it tomorrow.



i have tons of stuff i wanna do, but never really have the time or determination to do. and then again, some things. maybe, its nice to dream of and wish you had. but practically, nah. its fine to hope and aspire about nice stuff, aint it.


have recently been watching WGM 9-38. watched 16 episodes today :x i think hyun joong is freaking funny. HAHAHA.


nightnights. still waiting(: